Until Then

we’re all secretly cracked under these sturdy exteriors

can that be a basis for jumping off? a thing between which to compare?

i suck at words lately. a lot.

i just have sounds and feelings inside of me

i feel sluggish and less able to access my words. it’s like they’re deeper in. DDEEEEPER IN!!!! I’m tempted to blame my emergent persona. Men are not forced to access their words constantly in the same way that women are. It is culturally acceptable for me to go silent at any given time and not be called out as “aloof and bitchy.” How terrible that that is an accusation that can be leveled! Yet this is an observation I’ve steadily made.

“That’s what she said” jokes make me feel not feminist, but hey, by “she” i also mean he/ we/ they/ insert pronoun of choice.

INSERT. HA.

I am mentally 5. everything in my life needs just a little bit of work.